diagnosis update

Today I have learned that I do in fact have cancer. Pseudomyxoma peritonei (PMP),is a very slow growing condition and doesn't metastasize like 'traditional' cancer, and that is why tests, pathology and tumor markers, show benign. I was hoping to hear from my panel or a Dr. Today, but alas no.

I'm okay. It sounds strange to say 'i have cancer' but I'm at peace today, and the awesome thing is I have been all day. My emotions are dramatically different everyday, but not today. I have faith that even though I have cancer, everything will be just fine.

My Facebook post today, I shared my gratitude of being a mother. I will not be able to give birth again, and I am so grateful that I had the blessing and experience. In so grateful my children are healthy and happy, and its a great bonus that I have one of each! I've always wanted to be able to adopt, and hopefully that will be a reality in the future.
Prayer has been amazing. And the spirit guiding my thoughts and prayers, and to ask for the right thing. Reflecting on my prayers, I haven't asked for a cure, for a diagnosis, I've only asked for comfort, and for guidance for my physicians.

I am so grateful for the peace and power of The Comforter today. Today is truly my best day since I had my surgery and found my tumor.

Thank you to my many friends and family for the kind words, love, thoughts and many prayers.